from now on i’m going to begin with a song of the day. i believe songs say things that my words never could, so here’s to saying something:
“and we’ll no longer memorize or rhyme, too far along in our climb, stepping over what now towers to the sky…” -the shins, phantom limb
before you even say it, i know, i know. i haven’t written in two months. fail. alright, i admit - i am not the best journal keeper in the world. the whole reason i’m even writing tonight anyway is because i was visiting bryce this afternoon and saw he had a tumblr and when i asked him to add me and he saw this mess that is my two lonely posts, he made fun of me. i am driven to write by shame.
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it is the third day of the eleventh month already and i am somehow so very far engrossed in my music video and the funny thing is, i haven’t really even started yet. i have this foundation for a treatment that i’ve written and i honestly can’t tell if my band is keen on it or not - i sure hope they are because i really would like to shoot it. i guess if not this video, maybe the next one. here’s the evidence toward my first strides in the direction of optimism.
talked to dara on skype today - a very much needed distraction from the rest of my life today. the weather is suddenly very harsh and cold and all day long i felt like i just needed a hug. when mary came home from getting dinner i was in the kitchen and we both stood there for a few moments trying to figure out why today was so dreary. we couldn’t really nail down a solid answer, but today was certainly glum. a shins kind of day, shall we say.
i am still finishing up my final music video exercise for screening tomorrow. i am so sick of looking at it and i honestly don’t feel like doing it anymore, but i must admit that there is a tiny sliver of me that is quite proud of it. of course, it’s not amazing by any standards, but for once, i shot what i wanted to shoot. mission accomplished.
xx n
ps. today i counted that i have to unlock eight, yes EIGHT, doors in order to get to class. that’s a lot of doors considering i live less than one hundred yards from all of my classes.
